I have just hurt the one I love once again. I am just way too ahead of myself, not knowing how to guard my heart, and inevitably, put unnecessary pressure on her. I know it takes two hands to clap, but it is only now I realize its full intended meaning. I was so sure, but now, confused. It's a chained-combo slash on me 'cos I've hurt her again....

It has been so long since I last felt this, and this time, I just want a break from myself...